seriously considering buying this print. although there are lots of other ones on Brandonbird.com i like as well. …. hmmmmmmmm.
wow, its weird that i check tumblr every day but its been like 3 months since i’ve really used it myself. work is going very well, i’m reeeeeealy happy about it. all the people are work with are way better than the people back in data entry. I have way more fun at work than i did before and that should be allowed haha. i have had better relationships with girl friends than ive had since like middle school, and boys are still part of my life but not so much all i think about. I have had a few dates which is sweet. i like where i am right now, i’m about to get my raise at work this week! and i will have my 1 year anniversary with my Yaris, i think we should mini roadtrip to celebrate. 15 -15,000 miles. ohh what a wonderful year it has been.
After a week of “training” but still not really knowing enough states to actually do a full days work, i’m headed off to work this morning at my new start time of 8:00am, lets hope for no errors and enough work for me to do and understand. For the first hour at least i will be working on the worst ISO test i will have to take. booooooooo. Ps. My hair faded FAST, i can see why everyone has black instead of red hair. I will try not to give in.
I was so upset yesterday because of people lying and acting like something wasn’t happening the whole time right under my nose, I then hung out with the Nicest guy i think i’ve ever known, and at least for the time i was with him and a bit after, he made me feel a lot better, and i helped another friend out. I love that big teddy bear! More hanging out is coming his way haha.
I need some good girlfriends and a boy. I just want a guy that will be nice to me and wanna hang out with me and wanting to have sex with me would be a sweet bonus, no hidden bullshit. Like “I enjoy you’re company, i would like to lay around and watch movies with you”. I will try to stop talking about this subject, but that seems to be the only thing i can think about.
I dont know what or who to believe, on one hand im VERY happy where i am and dont really need any more, but theres a posibility of loosing it, and on the other hand it might just be bullshit and i should not compromise my dignity by staying with it. I put too much trust in people, and by doing so i believe what people say and now i’m really confused and annoyed with some people. Everyone thinks differently and what i want isn’t an option. I wish everyone had to tell the truth sometimes, i need need a truth potion or something. like for realz.
I hate that i have nobody to count on, my dad is really bad. i’ve been up for hours now with him, taking away shainsaws for him not to hurt himself, answering questions like he is a 4 year old, only trying to tell him things he wants to hear. hes seeing things and thinks people are out there trying to kill him. My mom called out neighbor and he is now over with him so that i can get a shower and go to work. mom says when i get home my dad shouldnt be home because he’ll be in the hospital…and the cycle starts again. :-( i dont have anyone in my life that even knows him, or knows how he WAS. my mom says “you cant live like this, you cant come home to him like this”… i feel so alone. i never really kept friends and the one that i did is engaged and doesnt talk to me anymore. The only people i feel close to are those who are ex boyfriends and that isnt too good for me. I dont have family to count on either, everyone kind of thinks my life is a joke…i’m not usally one to complain but… i cant do this anymore.
