13th
Alone.
I hate that i have nobody to count on, my dad is really bad. i’ve been up for hours now with him, taking away shainsaws for him not to hurt himself, answering questions like he is a 4 year old, only trying to tell him things he wants to hear. hes seeing things and thinks people are out there trying to kill him. My mom called out neighbor and he is now over with him so that i can get a shower and go to work. mom says when i get home my dad shouldnt be home because he’ll be in the hospital…and the cycle starts again. :-( i dont have anyone in my life that even knows him, or knows how he WAS. my mom says “you cant live like this, you cant come home to him like this”… i feel so alone. i never really kept friends and the one that i did is engaged and doesnt talk to me anymore. The only people i feel close to are those who are ex boyfriends and that isnt too good for me. I dont have family to count on either, everyone kind of thinks my life is a joke…i’m not usally one to complain but… i cant do this anymore.
